I'm lucky, I know that. I have a job, a roof over my head and a great girlfriend but that's not all.

I'm feeling extra lucky at the moment because in the last few days I've made lots of new friends. Good friends too - we've really connected. They tell me all their hopes and dreams and fears and I know I could tell them the same.

Seriously, I can't believe we all met each other and the fact that we were all in the same place at the same time is incredible! These guys are funny, sensitive, outgoing and the kind of people you know will always be there for you - I think we're growing really close.

I don't usually feel comfortable enough to open up and tell my story to people, especially new people, but with these guys I felt different.

Then I realised - I just can't do it. Put simply I lack the two most important things it takes when it comes to sharing my inner-most thoughts with others.

I don't have a video camera or a YouTube account!

So I'm sorry 'Hill88', 'boh3m3' and 'Crossmack', please don't take this the wrong way. It's not that I don't want to be your friend anymore - I do. I just hope you can understand that I'm going to have to keep things to myself for now - oh, of course you will, you guys are great. And I hope you'll be able to make other friends while I'm out of the picture...

Hold on... Just wait one damn minute...

15,000 subscribers! Are you having a laugh? I thought I meant something to you - I thought this was the real thing! But now I can see I was just one in a long line, a VERY long line of playthings for you. Well that's fine, no really, forget it, I don't need you lot, I'm moving on with my life.

PS. Let me know when you post your next vid - I miss you already!!